Old things are passed away; behold all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17
I have one bit of Godly advice for you: NEVER brood upon your past, but turn your eyes upon Jesus and look full in His wonderful face. And the things of this old world will grow strangely dim, in the LIGHT of His Glory and Grace.
Whom the Son set free is free indeed. As born-again believer, you can/should shake off the past and all misery attached to it. Don't even repeat detail of the past in written or spoken form. Leave the world behind and follow Jesus!
God's word teaches something better; secrets of His word are to be found in His word.
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on THESE things. Philippians 4:8
Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:4-5
God's word is the POWER for each believer, but we must use it in all situations and apply it to our lives.
Meditate upon His word and it will become life to your soul.
"EAT" it and you will never hunger again.
"DRINK" and your thurst will be quenched.
GO AND GET IT!