Seek the LORD, and His strength: seek His face evermore. Psalm 105:4
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO HAS TO TURN TO GOD, THROUGH JESUS CHRIST.
Repent of sin, past or present, turn around 100% and leave the mess behind, forsaking your sin and any connection with it.
Only fear the LORD, and serve Him in truth with all your heart: for consider how great things He hath done for you. 1 Samuel 12:24
Surrender to the Lord and let Him lead you. The Lord knows your intentions and He looks right through them.
Do not forget that Jesus sacrificed His life, so you may have eternal life, if you believe and walk in His ways.
Jesus did NOT die for your convenience or earthly benefits, but TO SAVE YOUR SOULS FROM HELL.
Start at square one, be obedient to the Scripture, personally accepting Jesus, then waterbaptism by immersion, as in Mark 16:16, and seek the infilling of the Holy Spirit and the speaking in tongues for self-edification.
But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Luke 12:31
Allow the Fruits of the Holy Spirit to develop in your life. Love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance..Galatians 5:22,23
Shun sin and wordly places, and screen videos, TV programs, books , wordly friend etc. CLEAN HOUSE.
GO ALL OUT FOR GOD, SURRENDER COMPLETELY TO JESUS.
If you don't want to do this, forget about the rest.
This is ALL hard work and much effort on your part to deny the flesh and take up your cross. If done for the love of Christ, He will carry you and make your burdens light.
IT IS WORTH IT !! HALLELUJAH !!
That ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. Romans 12: 1,2